I need to stop doing this to myself.

Why do I keep falling for guys that I know will never be mine? It isn't fair to myself. It's either the guy is famous or he has a girlfriend who is a million times better than me.

I'm not that bad.

I know I'm not.

But why must the perfect guy always be so far away? Why can't he be just around the corner? Why can't he reveal himself to me so I can stop looking myself?

It's all just one big heart ache. This entire ordeal is making me a not-so-hot mess.

I want to fall in love with someone who is in love with me. I'm looking for the real thing. I'm looking for my forever. I don't want someone who tries to impress me. I want someone who does it naturally.

Blogger.

You and I have become strangers. Forgive me.

To fill you in: I'm in love with a Korean. His name is Lee Jun-Ki. He's famous. He'll never love me.

But hey, what else is new? Ha, this seems to be the case scenario for every guy I've ever liked.

He's gorgeous though. He sings. He acts. So cute.

I'll update more later, and possibly give you a make-over. You deserve it.

:]

Ohkay, so I'm in my hotel room in Williamsburg. It's pretty awesome. And it's free :] I only realized after the car stopped that I stayed in the exact same position the entire car ride; staring out the window with music blasting. Strangely, my neck isn't sore. It's just one of those days when everything is going alright.

This Video Just Made My ENTIRE Day

See the bracelet?
;)

Hmph

I've told myself this before, but never really admitted it. My friend is really annoying me about The Maine. I'm the one who introduced her, and she's the one who is trying to get more people for their Buzznet contest. It's really unfair. I'm not trying to be shallow, but it really gets on my nerves.

:)

November 30th, 2008. Best night of MY LIFE!!! Ohkay, note to self: go to the Canal Club whenever possible ;) I saw The Maine there last night with one of my besties, Katrina. I gave John O'Callaghan my bracelet that ironically says 'Sweetheart' on the side. I asked him after the show if he liked it and he said he loved it. Not to mention, that man smells like the sweetest and most inebriating cologne I have ever smelled before. We waved 'hi' to Pat Kirch and he waved back with the most ginormous and incredibly adorable smile :D We got our pictures with Garrett Nickelsen, which I am mad that he did not smile in either of our pictures. AND most of all, I hugged Kennedy Brock. Yes, the Kennedy Brock that I swoon over on a daily basis with that heart-stopping smile and the amazing hair with matching guitar skills. I got a second picture with him and his smilie face :D I loved that night. THE best of the nine concerts I went to this year ;)

Yeah, Proof That I'm Deep

If you can read that, yay for you. I just made that like three seconds ago.
Want to actually see it if you can't?
Here:
http://i373.photobucket.com/albums/oo178/skintightalibi/Banners/Untitled-12.jpg

PLease don't steal that. I worked hard.